Another authentic moment

So, as I struggle throught this issue of worshipping the full range of human emotion, like David of old, I wrote a song, which fact I find amusing since I am about as musically adept as a clam. Still, a song I wrote, and although the music is trapped forever in my feeble mind, the lyrics are here. I call it Joy in the Rain. I wrote it as an attempt to express what so many of us feel in the midst of various trials. Its not pretty, but neither is most of life.

Joy in the Rain

I am weary, Lord.
I am wounded, Lord.
In the fire, Lord, there’s pain.

Oh, I suffer, Lord.
I am tired, Lord.
And my heart just wants to give in.

Through the fire, Lord,
And through rain
I just can’t see any joy…

Through the rain.
Through the rain, Lord,
I can’t see any joy
In the rain.
In the rain, Lord,
I just can’t see any joy
In the rain.

I am weak, Lord.
I am angry, Lord.
I feel so alone.

Oh, I need you, Lord,
But I can’t feel you, Lord,
And I don’t understand why.

Through the fire, Lord,
And in my pain
I just can’t see the joy…

In the rain.
In the rain, Lord
I just can’t see any joy
In the rain.
In the rain, Lord,
I just can’t see any joy
In the rain.

Lord, I know you’re there.
Why won’t you answer me?
I don’t want to be alone anymore.

Lord, I’ve fought this fight.
I fought it in your name
But now I’m tired, Father,
I am bruised.

So heal me now, Lord,
Look on your child,
And take away the pain

With your rain, Lord,
Heal me now
Wash me in your rain.

In your rain, Lord
In your rain,
Heal me with your rain

With your rain, Lord
With your rain,
Lord, heal me with your rain.

With your rain.